On Going Blogger = )

A fine long day since i last blog again. Many happenings this time when i went back to Sabah and got back. Well, for those who didnt know i went back.. sorry that i didnt tell you guys cause i was back for a special cause-to attend my best friends wedding. I was in charge of some stuffs so i could’nt possibly meet up you guys in KK besides my church mates!! Here i wish to say Congratuations to LEOn and Casey for their wedding!It’s really nice to see you 2 being called to become one in the Lord. Am so looking for the days to come when we can serve together again in His ministry together. As for Leon, remember oh what you’ve said that we can still go for YAm cha even though you are still attach k ; ) However, while there is a blessed couple here.. somewhere in the rurals of Kajang, the people are celebrating the turning of adulthood of the Princess of Kajang- MIss Shanti. Sorry that i cant attend your birthday but you know i woud’nt miss it if i was’nt back in Sabah. Thanks for all that you’ve done and shared with me. The sessions we had is just simply irreplaceable!

SO much of the good news.. when i came back i have loads of things to handle in the CF,church and also my studies.When one mornng i received a msg " CJ passed away this morning"…. this is truely one day that i couldnt forget because CJ, although we were not that close, he is still someone that have crossed my path of life as a friend. Am sad because i cant actually catch up with him to know what’s he’s up to. Friends have tried to reach out to him before and after when he was dianogsis with brain cancer. But somehow that day, God decided to take him home. Cant really know if we’ll meet again, but somehow somewhere deep in my heart says that we will!!! = )

Then i look deep again, when at this point when all dreams and hope are shattered. When prayers and chants are unanswered… who do we still look on to? Some gave up in believing what they believe in so far while others pursue on. Which one am i? but my main question here is, is it because of this that we hold grudge onto God? despite of all blessings He gave us, and when tragedies like this happen, we will hold our fist and anger towards HIm?

As i look at the whole thing again, i saw that i actually was there. Many of you woulndt know but i lost my dad when i was the age of 16…. it was complete darkness for me when he was taken back. Did i not cry out loud enough? Did i not shout loud enough to get God’s attention? Did i not believe in everything the word of God says that He is the God that heals? Did i not believe that HE will bring my dad back to life again? I did.. every possible faith and anger was thrown out before and after my dad’s dismissal. Funny to say this, but i am thankful for my dad’s dismissal because only then i realised how small i am and how long i have lived under his wide arms of protection. I learnt it the hard way and it wasnt easy to be what i am today, and i am still learning!

One last thing that comes to my mind now is to all my friends out there. Christians or not, i just want to tell you i might not rememeber all of you in my prayers but from time to time i will search deep and make sure i dont miss out anyone of you. In this world today, anytime and anywhere we can just dissapear just like that and it’s my prayer that all of us knows where we are heading when that happens. I know where am i going, and i hope to meet you there. I’ve got an assurance that even AIA cant afford to pay …. because my assurance is not cheap, it cost the life of one man, who gave His life for me- Jesus Christ. There is no loss in believing Him. But it’s a great loss if you don’t… so friends, my deepest prayer to all of us, is to meet up altogether in heaven one day! God bless all of us!!

                     Dedicated to all that i love and walk together with… SunBoy

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