Let me see, 3-4 months my last entry?hahaha.. but oh well, guess no one noticed it anyway! Just something that i post up that is for me to read back at times and work as a reminder of what and how things have occured in my life.
Ever felt like you just wake up? not wanting to do anything, and just let the day drift by?Ever felt when you’re witha bunch of friends, then as they laugh you just sit there not konwing what they saying?ever felt that sometimes you do something, even you dont even know what you’re doing? ever felt like you did something so wrong, that it seems impossible to forget and move on?ever felt that what you’re fighting for, that when you reached it was not something you imagined? Or is this the time that you think, why am i living on this world for? or the more saying, why did God lead me to this??
Not much of my life, but some that i went through.. as i gazed along the path i’ve walked there are so many that i’ve hurt deep and cruel. I never want it to happen, but it happen anyway, so badly that our paths split and we walked our seperate ways. I’m saying because this is my life and my song, but i’m not going to let it detemine which master i belong.
In times of my slack i always sit on my chair, wondering what will happen to me next day, then i just wonder and wonder and wonder along, that i am so lost in my own world alone. Happy indeed that no one sees what i do in the dark, because my doors are lock and my secrets kept deep in my heart. Hoping no one would see me like this, because no one understands what i’m going through, i let out a cry which makes me visible to my own truths. IS there a God i ask, and is He ever there? Please God why, would you have me in this situation today?
You are who you are for a reason, you’re part of an intricate plan. You’re a precious and perfect unique design, Called God’s special woman or man
You look like you look for a reason, Our God made no mistake. He knit you together within the womb, You’re just what He wanted to make.
The parents you had were the ones He chose, and no matter how you may feel. They were customed designed with God’s plan in mind, and they bear the Master’s seal
No, the trauma you faced was not easy, and God wept that it hurts you so. But it was allowed to shape your heart, so into His likeness you’d grow
You are who you are for a reason, you’ve been formed by the Master’s rod. You are who you are beloved, because there is a God! ……. by Russel Kelfer
Dedicated to the ones i love~~ and the ones who’s lost….
life is not unfair as long as you look up to the cross..
